Re:Re: Can Opposites Attract?

February 27, 2010

Hello Emily!


What an interesting post this is . . . I have often wondered, too - I believe opposites can attract, however not always for the right reasons!


The question rather . . . Should opposites attract? I agree with you completely . . . if there is no heart for God, there should be no attraction. Christ should always be our first love, no matter what! :)


Lauren


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Hello Lauren!

I agree with what you have had to say. I also thank you for taking the time to comment. As I read your comment, I realized that this was, indeed, another part of the issue (that opposites can attract for all of the wrong reasons), that should be expounded on and not taken lightly.

Why should it not be taken lightly? Well, many people mistake lust and attraction with being in-love. Everyone can be attracted to a person and mistake it for love. That's only natural, especially for teens. For example: my sisters (15) and her guy-friend (16) like each other. My sister wants to be just friends...she's attracted to him, but not in a way that would be considered "true love". Puppy love maybe, but not true love


However, this guy that really likes her is very attracted to my sister. He's a christian guy, but even Christians can become distracted from the main focus, God. Anyhow, he keeps telling her that he feels that God is telling him that his relationship with my sister was meant to last forever...that they're destined to marry. Yeah, I'll believe that when it happens!

But, what I am trying to get at is that he (my sister guy friend) has confused physical attraction with being in-love. He doesn't see the difference. He doesn't understand the purpose for taking it slow, being friends and letting God lead. But, he's a boy! And what boy understands such things at that age? 


As I thought about this, I also thought about what I had said to myself yesterday while reading the post you are referring to, I asked myself, "It's true that opposites do attract...but isn't it also true that opposites can attract for reasons that are not always the right reasons?" 


Of course. There is no way around it!


Everyone has a sinful nature and a desire to be with the opposite sex. It's only natural. Because people fall quickly for the opposite characteristics that they find attractive, they barely have time to stop and think (in some cases they refuse to think) about whether or not they are with the person God had predestined them to spend the rest of their lives with. They fail to understand the difference between true love and their sexual desires. It's not our job to choose for ourselves the person we are to spend the rest of our lives with...It is for God to know, for God to let happen and for God to deem glorifying to his name.


And Lauren, I totally agree with you...God should be our #1 in everything we do. If we are not on fire for God and if our mate is not on fire for God, then there should be absolutely no attraction and definitely no relationship.


Love & Blessings,


Emily

Re: Can Opposites Attract?

February 25, 2010

In regards to yesterdays post. I am sure you all agree on some of the qualities I've pointed out, but I am also quite confident that you all have your own ideas about what type of character a man/woman should have. Indeed, having admirable qualities is a "must have" in any relationship. If he or she is not Godly and does not express themselves or carry themselves in a Christian like manner, then he or she is simply not worth your time [even mine for that matter!]


Yesterday, I received a comment from LocaChica and here's what she had to say:  
Those are some really good qualities to look for in a guy! Some of the same things are on my list, but I have some different things, too :) On the top of mine is this: He must be totally, and completely on fire for God and for passionately dedicating his life to following the Great Commission.


And you know what I discovered? I forgot to put in the most important characteristic and aspect of a good husband into my list! Goodness me, I can hardly believe I forgot this. I, too, believe that a man should be more in love with God that he is in love with me! This, my dear friends should be on the TOP of all of our lists. I am blown away it wasn't on mine....


But I wanted to make sure you all knew that this was my primary must-have. There's no way around it! Thank you LocaChica for pointing this out to me! I am so forgetful! But why, why did I forget!? And on such a major aspect in any good relationship, too? Hehe!


P.S. LocaChica, I am so sorry I haven't commented in forever...I can't seem to leave comments on your blog....So I am letting you know in a post. I hope this is okay!?

Can Opposites Attract?

February 24, 2010

Lately, I have realized how true it was that opposites do attract. However, I don’t think this is true in every person’s experience. I am not the loudest person, unless you get me roused up. I can, when provoked be loud and very enthusiastic! But, I am usually the one you will find standing in the corner of a party alone, reading a book, writing an essay/novel or outside gardening. I love to joke, plat pranks on my family, give orders and be the leader I was born to be [every one's a leader in some respect]. I love having fun, yet, in all actuality, I am what you would call reserved. Is this even possible?!

I have, in some respect, come to the conclusion as to the type of guy I would want as a future husband. It is based on a character that I would deem appropriate based on his moral character and his personality similarities to my own.

You’d think that the person you’d be attracted to the most would be completely opposite in their nature, but that’s not always the case. I seem to be attracted to characters (fictional and non-fictional) who can take charge and are natural born leaders—the two characters that I speak of are, to be precise: Hawkeye from The Last of the Mohicans and Mr. Knightly from Emma.

Both men are:
  • EDIT: He must be on fire for God and more in love with the Lord that he is with me!
  • Bold
  • Determined
  • Reflective
  • Strong
  • Attentive
  • Independent
  • Have a good senses of humor
  • Methodical
  • Good listeners
  • Intelligent
  • Manly
  • Abrasive
  • Passionate
  • Optimistic
  • Sensitive
  • Willing to sacrifice everything for the ones they truly love
  • Have good morals
  • Devoted
  • Secure in themselves
  • Humble
  • Straightforward
  • Sincere
These are the things I want in a future husband. I pray that God will send me a husband who will bring out the positive, bold, sensitive person in me; someone who will be able to except my often dry personality (yes it’s true); someone who will be there for me when I get into one of my melancholy moods, listen patiently and is able to keep cool while I vent my frustrations, and someone who is able to have fun and be crazy without worrying what others think because he’s secure in who he is.

Since I was five I have had crushes on every TV star. This was an on and off process that lasted a month and then I moved onto the next actor who tickled my fancy. A process that lasted only a short time until I discovered the pleasure of reading! After that, I became more intrigued by the person’s character and less by their looks. I must admit, Hawkeye does flatter my fancy with his good looks, and Mr Knightly looks handsome in Emma! Yet, what really draws me to them is their personality.

I am sure all of you have thought about this now and then, like I have, and have become more infatuated in the person’s looks while by-passing their character. If this is the case, I encourage you girls to be praying hard about the things you really want for your future husbands—this not only goes for girls—guys, you too need to pray for your future wives! Not only pray for what type of person your spouse will be, but pray for their struggle to stay pure, too. As girls, Lord knows we need all the help we can get to withstand our sinful nature, and we also know that our future husbands need the help and prayer as much as we do.

Have you ever felt like there is no possibility that a godly, admirable Christian man will ever come along? Keep praying my dear friends! Have hope and trust that God has one out there for you. It may take time, but if you wait patiently and allow God to fulfill his plan for you, then you will not have to worry about the depopulation of honorable men in the world—God has one on the way! (This goes for you guys as well! If you’ve lost all hope in there ever being the shameless woman for you, be patient and know that it’s all in God’s time. There truly is a godly Christian girl out there for you – trust me, I know quite a few wonderful who qualify!).

I am Alive.... Again

February 21, 2010

Mood: Relaxed
Listening to: Alive Again by Matt Maher
I am listening to Alive Again by Matt Maher {as you already know} and began reflecting on the past two weeks. If you all are wondering...Yes, I am alive again! I cannot tell you how happy I am.  
God, you are a strong, healing and loving father!
For the past few weeks I have had such a hard time. I was having a physical, mental and spiritual battle. The physical and mental battle were nothing compared to the restlessness in my soul. I felt dead, incomplete and utterly hopeless! I was down for the count...like I'd been hit a dozen times.

I know this sounds morbid, dramatic and totally depressing. But, let me explain.

For some of you who might be thinking that this was a cry for help...it was! And for those who think the title implies that I wanted to die...simply not true. I have too much to live for, God, family and people who are in need of God's love.
This cry, was a cry of hopelessness. It was different. I was hopelessly lost; I was so far away from God. I was stressed. When I had reached my breaking point, I thought I was going to go crazy.

One night, while I was getting ready for bed, I broke down and started to cry. These were tears of overwhelming stress being lifted off my shoulders as I prayed to God for strength, faith and hope.

The darkness that had been dragging me down for those two weeks went away as I prayed:
Lord! I am so lost. I can't do this. Life is hard. I am unable to make it through on my own. Help me, Lord. You are my solid rock, and I need a dry, unwavering place to stand on. Be my shield, Lord. Give me the strength to make it though the days to come. Give me peace!
I pray all these things in your name,
Amen.
After praying, let me just tell you, things started to get better. Things started to look brighter. And felt at peace with my soul. I was alive again!
God is an amazing comforter and Father! He was there when I couldn't talk to anyone else. He is truly a loving Father and savior.  
I love you, Lord! I thank you for the healing you have done within me and for the peace you have given me! You are good, Lord. You are good!
He is good, isn't He? And this is why I will always praise Him in the storms. Because He can help us make it through. He's our only steady guide. He's our protector. I trust my life with Him and give Him all the glory and praise! I may have been knocked down...but I was not knocked out! Thanks to my Lord, I am ready for another round.  
One more round, Lord!

Tribulation Force: Synopsis

February 20, 2010


Hey! This is one of my newest books I will be writing in the future! Hope you enjoy the sneak peek!


Preacher’s kid, Abby Brown is suddenly overcome with emotion as she comes to the realization that she is alone. She can’t shake the feeling that something is terribly amiss, a feeling of fear and suspension. Yet she cannot seem to make heads or tails of what she is feeling at the moment.


It is 6:00 A.M. Her mom was usually up by now. She checked her clock a second time. Why wasn’t there a smell of freshly brewed coffee? Why couldn’t she smell the cinnamon rolls her mom had promised to make especially for her? Where was her father? Right about now her dad would be sipping a hot cup of coffee, taking a bite of a warm roll and reading his Bible, preparing for his next Sunday sermon. She couldn’t smell his strong, sweet aftershave, nor could she smell the angelic perfume of her mothers. And where was her sister? How come was she not up? Why wasn’t she ready for school?


Where were her family?!


Abby cautiously walked through the house—first to her sister’s room. The door was still closed. The lights were still off. And there was no answer as Abby called out, “Grace, are you there?” Silence. Abby gripped a hold of the handle and nervously turned it until the door cracked slightly. She peered in. She was half expecting her sister to be missing from her bed, but she still hoped to find her sister relaxed and sound asleep.


Her throat tightened as she struggled to choke back the tears. Grace was gone! Abby walked over to her sister’s bed and stood for the longest time nervously wringing her fingers and questioning herself. This is some sort of joke. She thought. Knowingly she pulled back the covers from her sister’s bed; realizing the branding truth of her reality. She doubted she could visit her parent’s room. She knew the pain and sorrow would be too much to bear. However, the only regret she had was not that she was unable to say good-bye to her beloved family, but the fact that she had been one of those unbelievers left behind.

Empty Me

February 19, 2010

I've had just enough of the spotlight
When it burns bright
To see how it gets in the blood
And I've tasted my share
Of the sweet life
And the wild ride
And found a little is not quite enough
I know how I can stray
And how fast my heart could change
Empty me
Of the selfishness inside
Every vain ambition
And the poison of my pride
And any foolish thing my heart holds to
Lord empty me of me
So I can be
Filled with you
I've seen just enough of the quick buys
Of the best lies
To know how prodigals can be drawn away
I know how I can stray
And how fast my heart could change
Empty me
Of the selfishness inside
Every vain ambition
And the poison of my pride
And any foolish thing my heart holds to
Lord empty me of me
So I can be
Filled with you
Cuz everything is a lesser thing
Compared to you
Compared to you
Cuz everything is a lesser thing
Compared to you
So I surrender all
Empty me
Of the selfishness inside
Every vain ambition
And the poison of my pride
Empty me
Of the selfishness inside
Every vain ambition
And the poison of my pride
And any foolish thing my heart holds to
Lord empty me of me
So I can be
Lord empty me of me
So I can be
Filled with you.
Filled with you
Empty me
........................................................

Ah, the beautiful lyrics sung by the amazing, sweet Chris Sligh! I love Chris Sligh. OK. You know what I mean, right? He's so cool! Every heard of him? Listened to his music? Or seen him on American Idol?
Well, if you haven't them shame on you! {Just kidding}.

But seriously, you should listen to his music. It is so touching, uplifting and makes you think about things that you normally wouldn't. At least I made me think.

When he was on American Idol, my family and I gave him a nickname {that I am sure everyone in America did as well}, Curly Chris. That was because of his super awesome Afro!

Anyway, he sings the song called Empty Me. {The lyrics above}. Empty Me is my favorite song!

Every time I hear this song, I cannot help but fall into a relaxed, jello-like state. I mean, that song it so powerful! It's hard not to feel the love of God when you hear that song.

As I listened to this song, I couldn't help but think about myself and what I am putting all of my focus on. Was it all about me, school, and life in general, or was I completely and ardently focused on my Lord? Well, to tell you the truth, I have failed to be 100% committed to my Lord.

I am not perfect.
I do struggle to find time to devote to the Lord. But, the Lord should always come first, and I have learned that over the past few months. Nothing is as important as our walk with God!

So, as I listened to this song, I began to think....

Life is tough and the pressure to be great takes it's tole on us. People just expect us to be perfect.

Well, that's just not possible in a fallen world! Sometimes we let things go to our head and we become prideful, boastful and conceited.


Normal, right?

Every person goes through this.


Nobody is blameless.


With all of these distractions, its no wonder we often loose sight of what it truly the most important thing we have, God. When we fill our mind and body with the lesser things in life-- other than God--it is safe to say that we have barely enough room to be filled with the "big man" upstairs...{that being God, our Holy Father, of course!}.

Empty Me is a prayer that every Christian should sing and pray on a daily basis. We shouldn't put so much focus on the little things in life.


That's not what's important!


Instead, we should fill out hearts, minds and bodies with something that will last a lifetime, something that will never fade. That is out Heavenly Father!


So, we pray to God that he will empty us of our selfishness, vain ambitions, pride, and
any foolish thing our hearts hold onto. We just ask the Lord to empty us of ourselves that we can


be filled with his love, ambition and determination.


If we are constantly filled with things that are not of God, then we leave no room for Him....
God gets left out of the big picture. And when that happens, we seem to shut Him out and become ineffective for Him, thus we need to be empties everyday of our pride, selfishness and all of those other sins, so that we can be filled with Him and so He can use us!

Precious Ornament

February 13, 2010



"Every virtue in your soul is a precious ornament which makes you dear to God and to man. But holy purity, the queen of virtues, the angelic virtue, is a jewel so precious that those who possess it become like the angels of God in Heaven, even though clothed in mortal flesh."~St. John Bosco

Challenge Me to Greatness: Valuing those in our lives that push us outside of our comfort zone

February 12, 2010


[This article is part of the 'Honor Parents, Value Soulmate' series at Sloppynoodle. View other parts of this series here.]


God is our amazing loving father and he will try bring people across our paths to help us deal with and heal the (earthly) father or mother wounds, rebellion or selfishness in our lives.
I love what Derek Prince said:


“God doesn’t just write things on pages. He puts truth in persons.”


Most of the time God uses those people closest to us, our parents, brothers, sisters, friends, husbands, wife, boyfriends and girlfriends to address the issues of our hearts.
In the book, ‘Always Daddy’s Girl’ H. Norman Wright says:


“The first step in releasing the past is to become aware of the problems which still exist. Identify what it is from your past that still bothers you, affects you, influences you, or hinders you” [9].


I think God often uses people close to us to address the issues in our life because they are sometimes the only people we will allow close enough to share our wounded hearts.
Joyce Meyer who experienced abuse from her father tells people how God brought her husband Dave into her life. Because of her past, Joyce’s thinking about men was so messed up that she made life a living misery for her husband.


She shares how her husband Dave Meyer used to sit in the car and cry, asking God for help. Because Joyce allowed God to work in her life, – and allowed herself to be open to and value Dave’s input, she is now being used by God around the world to help others suffering from similiar problems.


“Many times God will send you what you need in a package you don’t want” – John Bevere


It is just too easy to reject the package, – that person (or that group of people) that God puts in our lives to address the issues in our life.


Often ’self’ will come alive and our ego’s will kick into gear. Their input opens up our festering wound, – and if we are not careful, we see their input – something intended in love, – as control – and we feel insulted.


Joyce Meyer in her audio series ‘co-dependancy’ speaks of how her husband Dave addressed some of the issues in her life:


“He established a relationship with me for several years where I ruled the roost and I was the controller and we did pretty much whatever it took to keep me happy. And then God began to tell him you’ve got to start confronting her. You gotta rise up and be the head of your home. You can’t spend your life trying to keep her happy. Thats when he told me: "I found out I’m not gonna keep you happy anyway, so I’m done trying” And Dave started confronting me. He started saying no. And he started saying “I don’t want to” and “I’m not going too”. And he started telling me to be quiet. And He started telling me “I don’t want you doing that.” “…and my little flesh had a fit”…


In the bible Jesus – God himself – could not do any mighty work in his home town because the people there did not value him as somebody God had sent into their lives (Mark 6).


They instead probably saw Him as somebody they used to play ball games with, go to school with, – perhaps He was ‘that scrawny carpenters son’ that lived down the street. Instead of valuing and honoring Him, their lack of faith largely stopped them from experiencing ‘God on earth’, along with His healing and Power.


If we have come from a broken home with divorced parents, or left home in rebellion, God may bring a stable family across our paths to bring us healing – a family that we can interact with, learn to give to, respect and submit to.


If a guy had father wounds, God may bring along another mature man to be that father figure in His life. If a girl had father wounds, maybe God will bring a man (often a boyfriend and future husband) into her life to address those issues.


If a guy had no time for his mother, God may bring a loving woman into his life to give Him an opportunity to reform and learn to value the woman figure in his life.


We need to learn to value those that God sends into our life to teach us lessons – regardless of what the package itself looks like.


Perhaps we are living at home and have a difficult parent that is in our life to address ‘our own’ issues of selfishness.


Even if we do have a messed up, torn package in our lives that satan has destroyed. God can still use what the devil mean’t for evil and bring it around to good – if we have the right attitude about it.


We need to do what the bible says: honor and value them. It will be to our benefit if we do, because we will learn to love imperfect people selflessly.


Perhaps we have a brother or sister in our lives that is difficult to get along with. We now have a prime opportunity – a training ground – to be able to grow into being an easy-going person. When we meet our soul mate they may be far from perfect. Valuing that difficult person – parent or sibling – teaches us to value our soul mate.


Change can be difficult – regardless of who or what God uses to speak into our life. The input into our life may be difficult. It will address the hurt, the wounds, the pride, the selfishness in our lives.


Let’s learn to stick it out in God’s training school till the end and receive all that he has for us!
Just imagine when Joyce Meyer and her husband Dave started experiencing difficulty in their marriage. If Joyce and Dave were convinced the ’season’ was over in their lives and threw in the towel, – we would not have Joyce and Dave Meyer today – two people that God uses throughout the world.


Too often our well meaning friends or family around us encourage us to go the easy route – the shortcut, instead of the journey that will bring God’s true healing and transformation into our lives.


Lets stick at it until we have experienced God’s fullness of inner healing.


Sometimes God will bring these healing packages into our life for a season. Other times they may be in our life for a lifetime. God will bring them into our life, but it is often up to ‘us’ how long we allow God’s input to stay in our lives. Lets let God decide the seasons, rather than us.


When things get personal, and the muck starts coming out it is easy to give up and move on. All too often we cut the season that God intended short when these packages start to challenge us to greatness, expect too much of us, and the going gets tough. If we really want God’s fullness, its up to ‘God’ to remove them from our lives, not ‘us’.


In her article, ‘Love Means Sacrifice, Not Selfishness’, Joyce Meyer says:


“As long as we’re open to receive, God will continue to teach us every day.”[8]


It is our choice to receive from the packages God put in our life to make us uncomfortable. We can close the door whenever we wish. God is a gentlemen and will never force healing on us.
Lets choose to actively receive His healing with faith and resolve – whatever and whoever that package may be.

you are beautiful

February 10, 2010



"There could never be a more beautiful you
Don't buy the lies disguises and hoops they make you jump through
You were made to fill a purpose that only you could do
So there could never be a more beautiful you."
~ Jonny Diaz~

Emma

February 7, 2010

Mood: Contemplative
Listening to: Firefly by Owl City

:::I have to admit that I have grown quite fond of the 2009 version of Emma. I was skeptical at first because I didn't really like Romola Garai as Emma. But as I finished the series, I must say that she makes a spectacular Emma! She is elegant, very pretty, bold and bubbly.:::

:::Now, the character I found to be more that suitable to play in this adaption was Jonny Lee Miller who played Mr. Knightly. He was unlike the 1996 version of Mr. Knightly, who was very similar to Mr. Darcy in Pride and Prejudice. He is a superb model of good sense, honest, handsome and very melancholy.:::

:::The whole series was so delightful. I found it very eye catching. The scenery was splendid, the mood of the whole series was light and it was very easy to follow. This is one of this movies that I find it hard to describe amongst my excitement! I am going to be adding this to my Jane Austen Collection.:::

::::Here is the cast of Emma. Some of the parts they have played in may surprise you....they did me! I was utterly and pleasantly surprised to find out some of the roles that had played in on other movies! It's incredible.:::


:::Romola Garaï as the bubbly Emma Woodhouse {Love knows no boundaries. And neither does she}. She had played in many historical dramas, such as Atonement, Angel, Daniel Deronda, Amazing Grace. I would have never know, since I have never watched any of these movies. Now I must go watch Amazing Grace [I have been dying to see that movie].:::



:::Michael Gambon as Emma’s father, Mr. Woodhouse. He also made many appearances in the drama world, such as Cranford, Harry Potter, and Amazing Grace. He made such a wonderful, annoying and sweet patriarch.:::



:::Jonny Lee Miller as Mr. Knightley. He was already one of Jane Austen’s men, Mr. Bertram in the 1999 version of Mansfield Park. [In all honesty, the best Mr. Knightly by far!].:::


:::Jodhi May as Miss Taylor, Emma’s former governess. She also plays in several movies, like Daniel Deronda, The Last of Mohicans [I about fainted! I almost didn't recognise sweet, innocent Alice Munro!], Einstein and Eddington, The Other Boleyn Girl, Tipping the Velvet, The House of Mirth, Aristocrats, and many more are part of her very extended filmography.:::

:::Robert Bathurst as Mr. Weston. He is also a familiar face in period dramas, like The House of Eliott, Poirot, Black Adder, and Hornblower.

:::Tamsin Grieg as Miss Bates. She was recently part of BBC Anne Frank mini-series, where she played Edith Frank. It will be coming on PBS very soon! I cannot wait.:::
:::Other characters. Sorry, but I had a hard time trying to find pictures for some of the other characters. But they were all very well suited for this version of Emma. I am very pleased that i was able to watch it on PBS.:::
Harriet Smith — Louise Dylan
Frank Churchill — Rupert Evans
Jane Fairfax — Laura Pyper
Mr Elton — Blake Ritson
Mrs Elton — Christina Cole

{Dearest Friend}

Mood: Working
Listening to: In The Hands Of God by Newsboys
This is my first entry in this journal. But as you can see it is not the first post I have done. I know many of my followers are disappointed that I am not doing "real" posts at the moment. It's not that I don't want to, it's just that I have little time. This hurts me to see that I cannot provide them with good posts. Instead, I am deduced to write about my day in hopes that someone, in some small way, will be just as inspired as they would be, had I actually posted a Godly post.

Let me note that it is almost impossible to loose our salvation with Christ. Yes, even when we think it is possible! There is simply nothing of this earth that could disavow the love and determination of our Lord. He will never leave us, even when we go astray! For this reason I am glad to be a Christian. When times get rough, God is always there to lend a helping hand, even when everyone else seems to be against you.
Thank you God! For every pain, heartache, disappointment, trial and tribulation, there is light at the end of the tunnel. You Lord, are that momentous light! A light that leads us through the dark places when all other lights go out. Amen! 
I haven't been in a great mood for a long time. I feel so bogged down! Disconnected. Helpless. Hopeless. Out of control! This has to stop!  
 Lord, please help me! I am so confused. School is driving me bonkers and I am so afraid that I am loosing my relationship with you!

Waiting...

February 2, 2010

Listening to: A Little Bit More-Bert Weedom
Wise Words: "If we have no peace it is because we have forgotten that we belong to each other."-Mother Teresa 


Marriage. It's something I desire. Something I long for. It's only natural for a girl to want to spend the rest of her life with the man of her dreams. Like every little girl, at the age of 5, I would put on my play clothes and twirl around imagining I was a princess crowned in fine jewels, and wearing a white gown cascaded in delicate Irish lace. I would lay a quilt on the floor, take a handful of anything that resembled flowers { in most cases it was a hairbrush off the dresser} and I would proudly march down the isle to meet my handsome groom. At age 10, I was reading books that possessed a slightly romantic theme to them. This, of course, only enhanced my idea of the perfect man, romance, wedding and that first kiss.

Now at the age of 17, I am pondering over courtship books in an attempt to understand and train myself to be a good, modest, pure and wholesome Christian youth. I find myself wondering when my turn will come, when will this "someone special" will arrive and who he will be. I long to have my own "special someone". 
I understand this is too early to think about marriage. I am only 17, right? I have plenty of time to wait. I am perfectly content with being single, but one cannot help but be distracted and pressured to think that we must be married now. I find myself thinking about marriage in an attempt to prepare for it the best I can, and to make sure that I am ready for that life long commitment.

Reading books on dating, courting, purity, and modesty have helped me to understand--in a insufficient way--how guys think, how they act, and how distracting my actions, words and choice of clothing can be to any guy who has eyes, a heart and a mind.
"It is God's will that you should be sanctified: that you should avoid sexual immorality; that each of you should learn to control his own body in a way that is holy and honorable, not in passionate lust like the heathen, who do not know God...."(1 Thess. 4:3-5 3).
I am no where near ready to get married, but I find myself subconsciously preparing my life with this "special someone" without ever having met him! I have noticed that I am already searching for Mr. Right, and asking myself questions: Is he the one? Wait, maybe he's the one?! Who was I destined to be with? Who is the missing piece of my half-solved puzzle? Where is this mysterious stranger? I dream about him, yet I cannot see his face...who is he, when will I find out? Will he come find me? Will I find him? Do we already know each other?

I am gathering pictures of my ideal wedding dress, cake, bouquet, bride's dresses, music, color scheme, etc. I need to step back from all that effortless planning and focus on being me now. The single me who enjoys the freedom of not having to worry about anyone else. This is who I am now...I shouldn't worry about any of that wedding stuff. It's not going to happen in a very long time. I should stop. Think. And not rush. It's good to think about all that...every girl does! But why not enjoy being single for a while, settle into a nice starter home/apartment, get adjusted to the new job, save up, meet new people, relax and experience the things that you wouldn't normally be able to do if you were married. There is enough time for marriage, but the blessed beauty of singleness only last for so long.

At times I have asked myself if I was going over the top already longing for marriage. Was it a bad thing to long for marriage? Shouldn't God be enough? Shouldn't He be my primary focus in life? Of course God is enough, but He also created men and women for relationships. He saw the need for companionship, and to satisfy the need, He created Eve.
The LORD God said, "It is not good for the man to be alone. I will make a helper suitable for him" (Genesis 2:18).
It is unquestionable that some are called to a lifetime of singleness. And if this is God's plan for my life, then he will give me the faith I need. Yet, I strongly desire to be married. And it will most likely be something I experience.

So, at the moment I am committed to being single and staying pure for that "special someone" I am destined to meet in the future. If God wills me to marry, it will happen. But until that day comes, I shall remain in the "waiting" stage. I will trust in God and wait on him. I am thankful that he has someone special chosen for me, and I praise him through the hard times and the easy times. There will be good that comes out of this waiting period.

So, I write to my future husband a small note. I do not know where he is, but I can only imagine he is waiting for me as well....
Dearest,
I shall commit myself to a lifetime of purity. I shall wait for you. It will be hard. I will falter. I will sin. I am not perfect. But, I will not give up my fight to stay pure....for you and God. You are so dear to me. I cannot understand how someone can love a person so much without ever having met them first. This is my promise to you. I will not give up on you. So, please don't give up on me.
P.S. I love you
A Bride in Christ
Please note: Don't take this post as a desperate cry to be married. I know marriage is not the end-all in life and that a single girl like myself shouldn't worry about being married a such a young age. I don't want to sound desperate. This is not my only goal in life. Indeed I have other goals that I wish to achieve first before being married. However, I do think that it's a good thing to think about. Let me know what your views are on marriage...are they the same, or do you think differently on this issue?

A Masterpiece Classic: Emma

February 1, 2010

"People--their hopes, their dreams, their aspirations--there I am the expert."
....Emma Woodhouse in Jane Austen's Emma.

I have been watching Masterpiece Classics newest adaption to Jane Austen's novel Emma. This would make it the second week and I find this adaption to be unlike the ones I have seen in the past. The characters are particularly lovely, especially Mr. Knightly, whom I think fit the role very nicely. Yet something just doesn't set well with me when I watch this movie. I believe it is simply the actor they have chosen to play Emma Woodhouse. I think she is a little too happy. I don't think this actress best represents Emma, though I am sure there are some of you who would be more than willing to disagree with me.

I have watched other adaptions of Emma, and haven't found one that I adored more than the 1996 version that came on PBS a few years back. I think it captured the essence of Emma very well. However, this is just my opinion because I am very skeptical of newer versions of the same movie and/or book. I prefer the older versions that stick to the script, more that the newer ones who feel the liberty to enhance, if not change, the whole entirety of the movie or book!

But, I will have to see how this version of Emma plays out. Sometimes a good romantic ending can soften the hardest of hearts! I am hoping that this will be so. Because I do think that this version gives the book a lively disposition, as the 1996 version did not. We shall have to see!

I will let you know more later. As of right now, I am still stuck on the 1996 version of Emma. Maybe....just maybe my feelings will change for the better. I may just betray my better judgment, or perhaps I shall discover the newest collection to my Masterpiece library!